matt 18

   ²³ “Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. ²⁴ As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand bags of gold^[h] was brought to him. ²⁵ Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.  Tomas and his life of accidental and well intended sin's 
   ²⁶ “At this the servant fell on his knees before him. ‘Be patient with me,’ he begged, ‘and I will pay back everything.’ ²⁷ The servant’s master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go. Jesus took my place on the cross and paid in blood my debt
   ²⁸ “But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred silver coins.^[i] He grabbed him and began to choke him. ‘Pay back what you owe me!’ he demanded. Peg, jason, Paul, Rebbecca, Wayne, hell most anyone I have been around lately really!
   ²⁹ “His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, ‘Be patient with me, and I will pay it back.’
   ³⁰ “But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. Well not prison but sure as hell hardened my heart to them. Pulled away emotionally ³¹ When the other servants saw what had happened, they were outraged and went and told their master everything that had happened.
 
ok  if nothing changes....
   ³² “Then the master called the servant in. ‘You wicked servant,’ he said, ‘I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. ³³ Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’ ³⁴ In anger his master handed him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.
   ³⁵ “This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from your heart.”

So if we know how the story goes lets change it. Zoe watches this PBS show Super Why about this group of kids that go into stories and its always the same format. They are stuck in their "sin" because thats is whats  written on the page. And its always just one word that turns it all around.

Tomas heart is full of anger to those around him.

What word would be best to replace Anger  with  Love, mercy, maybe forgivness. Any would work really. I know Im a sinner and have been forgiven by my father and have not shown the same to my brothers and sisters. Let me be free of myself and these temperal feelings. Lord let me love others and serve them as you have done so graciously to me. Abba assult my heart and break the iron chains binding it from loving freely. From this cell of my own making hear my plea and give me a spoon to dig a tunnel till i can find the key. Free me from myself. I deserve your wrath and by the blood of your Son you have spared me. I dont want to ask for anymore for you have given so much but I am in need of you more. I come to you as a scared child with my bowl of grace spilt on the floor again, I come knowing I dont deserve a second chance hell lets be honest 502cd helping. And yet you pull me close and ladle heaping spoonfuls down my throat till my physical stomach is bursting at its seems. Lord let me never know satisfaction curse me with endless hungery for more of you.